Remember last week when I shared with you that I was waiting and waiting and waiting for a heart operation to close the atrial septal defect (ASD) that I was born with? I was SO READY to be given a date. Well, we only went and put the eye on it!
Last Tuesday as I was ordering soup with my parents in the Highlands of Scotland I got a phone call from Leeds General Hospital (a cool 400 miles away) saying:
You know you said you could come for a short notice cancellation? Well, could you get here tonight for open heart surgery tomorrow? The patient who was booked in is not well enough to go ahead.
I had one of those sliding doors moments where the world stood still and all I could hear was my own heart thumping. I knew there was a BIG choice to make.
THIS was it.
This was theeee call I had been waiting for and I could rise to the challenge or I could wimp out and wait another six weeks at least.
I took the chance. I owed it to myself and my family.
I walked back in to the garden centre, told my parents we had to leave the restaurant (without the soup – my dad protested), drove home, searched for a flight, booked the flight, confirmed with the hospital, phoned my darling man – who was delivering a presentation – and told him that he needed to pick me up at the airport in four hours and we were going to hospital in the morning. It was an emotionally charged conversation. Enough said.
I packed. I drove myself to the airport. I had a family hug with my parents and got on that plane. I was like a robot but I knew I could do it. I never planned to do this bit alone but I know I am never given a challenge bigger than I can cope with.
There was a faint flicker where I wondered if I was selfish to go ahead in such a whirlwind but I’m telling you, I had done all the mindset work I needed to do to get in there and trust.
Less than 20 hours after that phone call I was in surgery. The operation was 100% successful. The 3.5cm hole was closed with tissue from my own heart. The body’s capacity to heal is incredible. Before surgery the right side of my heart was 50% bigger than it should be because it was working twice as hard. Within FIVE days it had returned to normal. FIVE DAYS. Don’t ever say you can’t accomplish magic in this world.
For now I’m skipping the parts about morphine and out of body experiences because I promised myself I’d rest.
I got home from hospital on Monday – after only five nights. Yesterday I walked 2 miles round the park. It felt amazing. I am taking it slowly and adding a little more each day.
Love you all lots – thank you SO much for the messages of love and care you sent after I told you I was due the op. Honestly, I’m touched.
Sophia Lennox is a professional life coach, master NLP practitioner and a loving yogi, it’s her mission to support women to let go of the thoughts that hold them back, to reclaim their confidence, and to live a happy life.